Hope Is in Your Hands
A Litany
Dum anima est, spes esse.
—Cicero
Hope is a thumbs-up from across the room when you’re one bad thought from the door. Hope is a palm on a back that’s been bent all year, steadying and straightening, saying nothing at all. Hope is a middle finger aimed squarely at cruelty, arming love with something sharp for when Right must bite. Hope is a handshake with someone you have every reason not to trust, the muscle memory of believing people can still surprise you. Hope is an OK sign, a small circle made of flesh and faith whispering you’re doing fine, don’t panic. Hope is a high five so hard it stings, celebrating something that hasn’t happened yet because enthusiasm waits for nothing. Hope is a peace sign thrown up in a world that doesn’t want it; two fingers, stubborn as a weed pushing through concrete. Hope is fingers crossed behind your back while you tell someone you love that everything is going to be fine. Hope is a raised palm that stops what shouldn’t continue. Hope is a clenched fist when something precious needs defending. Hope is an open hand when something broken needs receiving. Hope is soft-spoken. It never explains itself. It just points forward. It’s what remains when words fail, when plans collapse, when all falls down. More than a feeling, it is a gesture. Something you do with the body you have, in the moment you’re in, for the person in front of you. It isn’t clean. It shakes. It blisters. It bleeds. It fumbles and holds on too long. But it has always been in your hands.
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With sincere gratitude,
Tom



Hi Tom
While reading, "Hope Is in Your Hands", I'm not sure what line I was reading when I started crying but once the crying started it didn't stop even after I finished reading your last words, "But it has always been in your hands". I sat for awhile afterwards and just totally appreciated every word you wrote, thank you. This is the first time I have ever written a comment (the first time I have been brave enough!) but it is not the first time I have ever cried reading something you have written. Thank you so much for sharing your words. Thank you for being you. Sincerely, Daina
I have to confess Tom that I felt a little conflicted when reading this. “Hope is in your hands” gave me a different mental image. Couldn’t help but remember the old stories about the Hope Diamond, a magnificent jewel that allegedly brought misfortune upon its holders. Well, in any event, be careful what you hope for!